Well I am settling in to MY new home. That's right I moved out of my mothers house!! Yay me!! : ) J and I are getting back into our routine and I could not be more excited!! We have been her just over a week and other than the first night J was here ( he was with his daddy the weekend I moved in ) we haven't had any problems. I still have a few things I need to purchase to complete our new home but they will come in time.
We are getting ready for Christmas which is always exciting! I can't wait to exchange gifts with each person we have bought for! I still have shopping to do but I'm going to finish it this weekend then all next week I wrap! : ) at first I wasn't going to wrap Santa stuff but I think I will. I'll wrap in different paper but I think it will be more fun for J to unwrap EVERYTHING
I'm still struggling with the holidays thing the fact that my boy will not be with me all day. He will never get to open his stuff and play with it because he will always have to leave to go with his dad. : ( J has been struggling with missing his dad a lot here lately. I am at the point that I don't know what else to say. I've reassured him his daddy loves him and misses him. That anytime he wants to call him all he has to do is ask. We've talked about me missing him too but nothing is helping and it's not getting better or easier. I think that part of his issue is I'm still not comfortable with it. I want to date I want to find someone but I'm afraid that I'll find someone who doesn't understand J is number 1 in my life period or someone J doesn't like. I know I'm totally over thinking it but it's a very scary thing. I just hope that in time I get over that fear.
Any other single moms have this fear?? Please tell me I'm not alone!!
Love always
A
